Sunday, May 27, 2012

Short.

A short quick post from me. Masa tgh type benda alah ni, fatin tengah packing barang-barang nak balik. Waaaaaaa *nangeh ayaq mata daghah. Sampai hati cik fatin tinggal kite balik malaysia. 4 hari pulak tu. Sape nak teman kite dalam bilik yg ade lipas ni? (mengada-ngada) Untung laa dapat balik kan kan? Haih. Make sure buy me something eh? Nasik kenduri ke apa ke tapau la. Bunga telur pun boleh. =.=" 

Should I say last week was the stress week for my friends? Yeah. & unluckily I got affected by my surroundings. I don't blame them. Hidup kalau takde masalah bukan hidup namanya isn't it? Ups & downs. Brace yourselves kawan-kawan. Banyak lagi halangan di masa hadapan. Bila fikir-fikir balik i'm not really a good friend. I just don't know how to show that I care, but it doesn't mean that I don't care. Yeah sorry for that. Thanks to ze friends, am learning day by day to be a human being. Learnt the lessons. :)

Guess that this week should be busy eh. Seminar lagi & lagi. The fact that I hate to be on the stage & talk. Zzzzz. Harap-harap lecturer tak tanya soalan macam-macam. Tapi kalau muka confident macam tahu semua benda pun tak boleh jugak =.=" 


Celebrate hamizah ghazali's birthday just now. Hahaha happy 21 & stay healthy! (she's the most brilliant girl in the class just so you know) Oh btw kek tu tak sedapppp sbb simpan lama dalam fridge & takde letrik siang tu. Haih india with everyday earth hours. Tapi best kan mizah kena lumur dgn kek tu? Hahaha. 

Okay that's all babaii.

p/s : Our eyes need to be washed by tears so we can see life with a clear view again. =)

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Zzzzzz

Assalamualaikum everyone. Gegaya macam takde kerja weekend2 ni kan. Lol. Orang malas memang macam ni. Sebenarnya nak cakap yg aku homesick (google translate cakap homesick tu = rindu dengan kampung halaman) Hahaha lawak ah, tak caye gi google. 


Rindu dengan Hana Miamia. She's one year old now (to be exact setahun 6 hari pffttt)


Mia dah pandai makan gigit kura-kura skrg. Dah tak heran dengan stitch mama dia.


Happy bebenor nampak? Eh sorry la kite crop gmbr abah mia. Hahaha kite nak gambar mia je. 
Oh btw fringe mia senget sbb time atuk potong rambut mia tak duduk diam. LOL lawak ah.


Pandai posing eh? 

Alaaa mia won't recognize me once I get back. Sure dia macam sape makcik pakai gigi besi ni? Rasa-rasa macam penah jumpa before ni. Haih it's makngah la makngah. Tp kalau nak panggil angah pun okay. XD muda lagi kot. Nenek aunty jaja cakap muka mia macam budak nakal. Lol mana ada, mia baik kot, yg nakal tu aunty. Kekeke. 


p/s : So I spend my whole life hiding my heart away. I can't spend my whole life hiding my heart away. 


Saturday, April 28, 2012

Lalala

Assalamualaikum. Ehem ehem. Sememangnya aku manusia yg banyak berfikir. Hihi. Walaupun banyak lagi kerja lain yg boleh dibuat pada malam minggu, seperti laundry baju yg sudah menimbun, telefon ayah, kemas bilik, buat notes, belajar etc tapi aku memilih untuk berpeleseran di depan lappy & online (untung lah sape yg ade tv tu :p) Then I decided to update something teeheeee. 
Hmm last few days musalmah (bukan nama sebenar) came to me. Then we're chit chatting about 3rd year punye cuti which means next year. Sbb cuti next year agak lama jadi cakap la pasal plan time cuti. & tiba-tiba dia cakap "aku plan nak kawen next year". Jadi aku pun tenung lah muka dia lama-lama sebab tak expect yg dia akan cakap camtu. Dengan sape tu tak payah tanya lah sebab aku dah boleh agak. Start dari situ lah kepala ni tak berhenti berfikir. Lol. (Yaa, am that kind of person who thinks about this remeh-temeh thing). Diskusi kami malam itu hanya pasal topik cliche yg kawan-kawan aku dok selalu sebut which is kahwin. Dah banyak sangat aku dengar cerita pasal org kahwin time belajar. I don't know, it has the pros & cons right? Tapi dari cerita musalmah tu aku nampak yg dia ni memang betul-betul yakin & determine. Perghh. I could see from her reaction & the way she talks. I asked many things so that she could think & the answers seemed like she's ready. :O :O Weh, seriously? Kita muda lagi kot (tgh dengar We're young :p). Yupp different people have different opinion. So I just listened & give my suggestions. Musalmah tanya pasal wedding plan dia (dia dah ada bajet dah wey). Walaupun aku bukan wedding planner tapi aku tahu sebab aku handle wedding kak ayu hikhik (so sesape yg memerlukan perkhidmatan idayahkapi untuk majlis anda boleh la call terutama kepada jaja & dett lulz). Sorry menyimpang sikit. Tapi banyak soalan yang aku tak tanya musalmah malam tu sebab tak terkeluar dari mulut. Last-last soalan2 tu aku tanya diri aku sendiri. 
Dah ready ke? Ready means from every aspects because this marriage thingy will change your whole life. Isn't it? For a person who afraids of commitment like me haha tak payah tanya la kot. Ohh musalmah dok fikir macam mane nak intro kat parents dia pasal benda ni. Kahkahkah. Tanya aku memang membantu sangat. Gitau je direct. Intro dia camni ehem ehem "Ayah kakak, dayah nak kawen" lepas tu gelak kuat-kuat. Eleh mesti diorg gelakkan punya. Haiyoo they know la I've never been serious & pentipu besar dalam rumah tu. Haah eh perasan jugak my family never ask about those things, tapi bila balik kampung soalan wajib tu dia laa. Makcik pakcik atuk nenek sepupu sepapat, jangan tanya soalan cliche itu berulang kali sebab jawapannye mesti sama. 
Dah confuse apa point aku tulis pasal benda ni duh. Err sebab aku banyak fikir aku pun research la (aku terer bab-bab research ni, seriously). How do you know that 'that person' is your soulmate? What if you're marrying the wrong person? But love is blind and lovers cannot see. Haih entah la. Kalau dah jodoh, tak ke mana ye dak? :) The fact is no one looks 25 forever. Ultimately, we love the person we marry for more than their appearance. When we get to know someone we love & admire, we'll love them for their inner beauty and overall essence. I read from an article 'One of the biggest mistakes that many young muslims make is rushing into marriage without properly and thoroughly getting to know someone'.
Sorry that I come out with this post, just that i'm 20 (yaa i'm that young), so naive about all this things. Banyak lagi kena belajar ilmu hidup. Never think of this kind of things before, I mean never think deeply about this matter. Berangan sikit-sikit tu ada la. Hahaha. Tapi jauh lagi angan-angan itu dan banyak lagi benda nak buat dalam hidup sebelum sampai chapter kahwin. Yes, Allah ada plan untuk kita kan? Tapi dari sekarang kita doa la dapat soulmate soleh/solehah. 



I want this kind of relationship
she : Grow old with me?
he : Sure do.

Kahkahkah. Please la jangan gelak XD XD 

p/s : Between 'just friends', friendzone, never meant to be together and happily ever after. I think it's clear enough. 


Friday, April 27, 2012

Minion XD



Ba ba ba ba banana. Potato naaaa.


p/s : Kalau stress tgk ni XD XD

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Today



16 april. How can I forget this date? :) It's been 4 years. I miss you mak. No one can ever replace you. A strong woman, a loving wife, a dedicated teacher, a strict-funny-loving mother all into one. The person who taught me most of the things in life, dari abc, 123, alif ba ta until I can read the Quran well. Kaki sakat org kat rumah. I miss your smiles, your hugs, your bebelan, your jokes (her jokes were better than mine seriously), your cook (eventhough ayah can cook, but ayah can't bake lol), your text before me & kakak go to sleep, your everything. Haih. There were so many IFs in my head since 16 april 2008 until now. But I know, kita tak boleh lawan kehendakNya kan? I'm glad that people said I have the same voice & laughs as yours. :D 
All I can do is praying for you mak, inshaallah I'll do it as long as I live. <3 No worries, I read the Quran almost everyday as you said. Everyone's missing you. In memories of the person who I love the most, my mom :') 


p/s : To people who read this, pls kindly recite Al-fatihah to arwah. Thankyouu so much! Appreciate it :')

An article

I found something in malaysianinsider.com which I think may be useful to put it in this blog. It's an opinion from Dr. Kamal Amzan.

So, you want to be a doctor



April 13, 2012
APRIL 13 — “A trainee doctor was found dead after an overdose. He was found dead with a used syringe beside him, with a drug used to fight off fatigue.” The Star, April 12, 2012.
For me, this is an issue close to my heart.
A few years ago, a friend of mine committed suicide by jumping from his apartment on the fourth floor of an apartment complex. He was a jolly good fellow, but faced a few bumps in his years as a medical student.
And throughout the years I worked as a houseman, two of my colleagues broke down and are under psychiatric follow-up, another four quit the profession while two others left for Australia.
My consultant used to call those who break down “collateral damage.”
I had my ups and downs those days. Some days I worked 36 hours straight, no rest, a Snickers bar in between, and was expected to be sharp, smart, alert, and to make the right calls at the same time. At one time, I remembered going home at 7pm, after 36 hours of working, only to be called back to the ward at 10pm because of someone else’s mistake.
No human should be treated this way. Expecting us to make the right decisions, and to treat patients well while depriving us of sleep and rest is ridiculous.
As if that was not bad enough, we were often subjected to verbal abuse in the wards, at times in front of patients and their family members. Some of us were even employed as security guards to chase away family members during non-visiting hours, and as a dispatcher running around searching for old notes.
I’m not sure what it is like now but those were the “good” old days.
Though the system produced good, resilient, disciplined, military-like doctors, there were a few who fell along the way from fatigue and mental breakdown.
Ten years back, we were short of doctors. Now, we have an oversupply of them in the hospitals. I used to take care of 16 patients in the ward and, now, from what I gather each houseman takes care of five to six patients only. And since some of the hospitals are computerised, they are no longer running around dispatching notes and results.
If this applies to most of the government hospitals, it must mean that their workload is markedly reduced.
I suppose the Ministry of Heath has begun to realise that housemen learn, think, respond better when they are well rested. I would rather have a few energetic, well-rested doctors treating me rather than more of those tired, sleep-deprived doctors at my bedside. On that note kudos to the Ministry of Health.
But then, as the working hours become shorter, and workload lighter, the quality of doctors we produce may now be an issue.
The Ministry of Health should conduct stringent tests before these doctors complete their housemanship. If they don’t perform or have an attitude problem, don’t pass them and keep them in the system for as long as it takes.
Revoke their title, bar them from practising if necessary, because what is worse than a tired doctor is one with a bad attitude and knowledge.
As much as housemen deserve better treatment, it should not be at the expense of our patients.
It is a good idea to make compulsory SPM/STPM leavers do community and volunteer work in hospitals, nursing homes, orphanages before applying to take up medicine. Aptitude and attitude tests are also a good way to judge someone’s character, but it is by no means a conclusive test to vet a person.
I mention all this because I do not want houseman to suffer from professional disillusionment. It needs to be addressed before they even step into medical schools or we may end up spending hundreds of thousands of ringgit training doctors, who at the end of the day realise ,”Hey, I do not want to do this for a living.”
Which is what we are beginning to see in our young doctors.
You may have a string of As in your exam but the passion you have in helping a fellow human being is the one that determines how good of a doctor you are.
Patch Adams said, “Our job is improving the quality of life, not just delaying death.”
A good working environment, and attitude is important in any profession especially medicine. And when the government is taking steps to improving their working condition, housemen should learn to count their blessings that they have been given an opportunity to serve humanity.
It is a privilege that not many have.
If all fails, then perhaps our SPM leavers should ponder on this quote by German born American physician Martin Henry Fischer before taking up medicine, “A doctor must work 18 hours a day and seven days a week. If you cannot console yourself to this, get out of the profession.”
Because when the going gets tough, it is the tough who get going.


Hewhewhew. Scaryy isn't it? I don't want to undergo mental breakdown or even worse commit suicide once I start my houseman? Ya Allah, nauzubillah. :( I know it's going to be 3 years from now. It's just that I can't stop thinking, can I do this? Mampu ke? HE knows the best. 

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Crime

Assalamualaikum. Sebab hari ni macam tak berapa nak productive (padahal hari2 pun mmg tak productive. Haih) jadi tetiba rasa nak update belog. Setelah makan kat Zaika & habiskan duit kat Harsha dengan beli periuk baru dengan harapan balik bilik boleh buat bubur kacang utk minum petang, tapi harapan itu musnah sebab santan dah habis buat nasik lemak itu hari. Aiyooo. Mmg kempunan. =.= Seriously esok jugak aku akan keluar cari santan. Hahaha. Apa motif aku skrg ni? Err ohh. Hari ni wind orc. Berapa tahun entah tinggalkan sekolah. Takpe, we're youngg! Eh? Usha gambar saringan nik upload kat fb. Ssp pakai tudung pink u olls. Mula2 aku tak cam langsung sebab mmg aku tak kenal mana-mana junior yg ada kat situ. Hihihi. Tp sebab ada tulis sp winds kat situ jadi aku pun tahu lah. Lagu apa diorg main pun tak tahu. =.=" 
Tadi nampak jaja tweet "Pengalaman sekolah asrama banyak mengajar kita. Salah satu : cara nak pecah rumah sendiri bila semua tak bawak kunci rumah." LOL. Mood untuk menggamit zaman nostalgia pun dtg. Tiba-tiba teringat masa nak guna hall for band practice. Mintak permission kt bonda nak guna hall tapi turun2 hall kunci. Masa tu ptg kot. Puas kitorg try bukak semua pintu hall, atlast aku decide nak pecah masuk ikut pintu toilet hall tu haa. Aku ajak wiwin dengan sape entah lg sorg. Kahkahkah. Tingkap toilet tu tak macam mengadap quarters guru pulak kan. *geleng-geleng kepala. Kitorg panjat masuk kot tingkap (fyi, masa tu badan kecik so mmg muat masuk kot situ) & akhirnya berjaya bukak pintu hall dari dalam. Hahahaha yeayyy! Pastu aku ngn wiwin gtau bonda yg pintu hall dah boleh bukak. Takkan kitorg nak gtau yg kitorg pecah masuk dgn pakai baju kurung pulak kan, ape tah kitorg kelentong dah lupa LOL. Itu lah guna muka skema & innocent zaman-zaman sekolah dulu. Hahaha. Buat kerja jahat tak pernah kantoi. Orang takkan suspect lu ni penjenayah punya. Komplot dengan budak-budak band memang di hujung jari. No one knows except for the band members. Sebab tu la cikgu syira tak puas hati sampai buat spotcheck kat band room kan. Hikhik ampun cikgu. Btw kami tak sorok barang-barang haram dalam case instrument, dalam eupho mahu pun tuba. Sila cari di tempat lain ye. Time tgh spotcheck org, dalam hati cuak yg amat, takut fone dalam BR kena rampas. Selamat jugak akhirnya. XD Oh ada jugak masa-masa di mana aku sorok fone dalam blazer prefect tu haa. Kekeke. Prefects dorm aku ada syak jugak tapi diorg tidak mengambil tindakan sebab diorg tahu aku baik. Ngahaha *evil laugh* A bit of confessions about my crime tak salah kan? Takdenye pk hem nak datang bilik malam ni tangkap aku. :pp 
Dulu rasa nak cepat habis sekolah, sekarang baru nak rindu. :(


Despite of having Lamee & dull life here, we managed to camwhore-ing :pp












Ni partner in crime time sekolah dulu. Eh takde la partner sangat tapi jaja memang budak jenayah.
Hahahahaha sorry ja, tapi betul ape. Dett tak kot, dett lagi baik dari aku.
Patutnya dett yg jadi prefect, tp sebab muka aku lagi nerd dari dia so aku yg jadi LOL

Moral of the story, don't judge a person by his/her appearance. Ingat dia pakai spec old school, dia tak buat jenayah ke? Hahaha btw am still wearing old school spec now. Teeheeeee.
Damia bakal mewarisi makngah in making those weird facial expression. Weehoooooo XD Jangan mewarisi buat jenayah kat sekolah sudah hahah. 
That's all for tonight, please enjoy your meal. (Eh, to announcement dalam DM ssp! hahaha)

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

I'll give all my prayers to people in those countries that had received warning for tsunami esp Indonesia. Penang also get affected today. Kak ayu msg kena turun from kondo dua kali sbb bergegar. Dah la dgn damia je kat umah. Hewhewhew. Experience betul. Beriyer haa dia cerita pasal benda alah tu. Sbb it's 8.9 skala ritcher, mesti la kuat. Alhamdulillah everything's fine now. But when this kind of things happened, yang peningnya there'll be a lot of rumours going around in the internet. So, orang yg takde kat tempat kejadian pun nak membuta tuli percaya. Macam tadi sibuk cakap penang bridge tutup lah ape. Padahal, traffic okay je. & diorg cakap penang bridge punya pole no 21 retak. Yg tu wallahualam. Jadi, message yg ingin disampaikan ialah be careful, jangan berumah di tepian pantai (Eh? peribahasa ke tu?) Sebab tadi cakap dengan ayah & kakak lama la jugak kat dalam fone, so skrg macam homesick. Hahah boleh tak camtu. Ohh damia dah tumbuh gigi! Budak tecik tu kalau balik ni dia tak kenal kite, jaga lah. Cubit nanti. Takpe takpe, lagi 3 bulan lebih je nak balik malaysia. LOL. Now am behaving like anak manja yg asyik nak balik umah. :p Mesti laa, lapaq nasi kandaq dgn char kuey teow kot! Rindu ayah jugaaa. Plus this week is not a very good week. Ye la, lecturer pbl tu kan, asyik cari gaduh je kot. =.=" Malang bebenor esok lusa ada pbl lagi dgn dia. Kalau esok dia point gua lagi, mmg gua bukak langkah silat tang tu jugak. Grrr. Diharap bersabar wahai idayah. Tak baik lawan cikgu. Adoyaii. 

p/s : Sorry kalau ayat mcm kaf lam ya nga sebab mungkin tersampuk org sini cakap. Ayat saya tarak betul juga. Hahaha.

p p s : If you have to keep wondering where you stand in someone's life, maybe it's time to stop standing and start walking.   -Quoted somewhere-